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| Sunday, November 15th, 2009 | | 8:57 pm |
This post doesn't exist. lol.
>.>;; Feel free to completely ignore this post... Well, unless you're curious, but no mocking! XD o.o;; I decided to save my WoW RP notes here, as well as on my PC, this way I can access them from other computers if I needed to. ... Though god only knows why the HELL I might need to do that... O.o;; Eeh, anyway... <.<;; That is all. ( Misc WoW RP notes... All works in progress. )((This mood icon fits my current mood perfectly... lol, I _remember_ that episode. Exhausted/Sleepy/Startled/Bzuh?!/O.O/O.o/ >.o is me.)) Current Mood:  drained | | Saturday, October 31st, 2009 | | 6:56 am |
Bah... I'm a royal f-ing failure. MY costume isn't going to be done in time for Halloween. >.< Damnit. Though on the up side, it will eventually be done! I actually figured out almost all those damn bits that were giving me so much damn trouble! The Pattern and instructions were fucked up beyond belief, cursing the creators of McCall's patterns to the deepest depths of hell, I took a break and had an epiphany. XP Figured out the pants at long last!!! Should fix a pleat and need to stitch in the snaps, but that'll be EASY. :3 When I next find the energy again to work on it all, likely after some sleep at LEAST, I need to attach the sleeves, sew the bottom panels together and attach them, then just stitch the lining to the jacket, and adding the collar when I do. XP All-in-all not much work is left, and yet MORE than enough of it is that there's probably no way in hell I'll be able to finish it before the party tomorrow. :/ Suckage. Thank god for backup ideas, huh? Heh, Guess I'm just going to have to dig out the old black robes again. Got some pointy ears from the Halloween shop today, as well as some other supplies in case I needed 'em for an emergency improvised costume. Nowhere NEAR as cool as what I was wanting, but.... Meh. WTF ever. Gwynn's gonna help me improvise, 'n it should be entertaining at least. XP Current Mood: drained | | Thursday, October 15th, 2009 | | 1:09 am |
Hn... ... I used to love Halloween more than anything... Well, I still technically DO, but it's a lot more complicated lately. >.o I still am freakishly crazy about Halloween, but the problem is that I'm starting go think it perhaps means TOO much to me. I have a bitch of a time angsting over what damn costume to wear, how to create it and piece it together, that I spaz and start to hate my favorite holiday. It sucks. Originally I wanted to buy some fabric and hopefully snag a pattern or two to piece together a neat Cosplay outfit for Halloween. I REALLY had wanted to piece together a costume for Kunzite... But it's quickly seeming like that just REALLY won't work. I can't get anyone to loan me the use of a sewing machine, I can't find ANY patterns I could roughly adapt... Found several nice fabrics that I wanted to buy to work with... But jack shit elsewise. Next thought followed much in line with my standard obsession of "The Lost Boys"... Butttt... My chances of finding that damn jacket are slim to f-king none. So that's mostly out... Though I AM going to check a few thrift shops and whatnot between now and then... Maybe I'll get lucky? (Yah, right.) So yah... This? Is probably unlikely as hell as well... Though given my newest haircut, I'm probably just gonna go for a nice cheap-ass copout costume... I don't think ANYone I will be spending Halloween with will get it... But that's cool. Only one friend figured out my Raistlin costume, so it would just be 'tradition' to go with weird-ass semi-obscure junk... Only problem opting to play Dean Winchester for a night... No one will think I'm dressing up! >.o Bah, It's aggravating! Current Mood:  annoyed | | Wednesday, October 14th, 2009 | | 6:02 pm |
There are good days, and there are bad days... ... And then there are REALLY bad days. You know, those days that saying they royally suck is an understatement? This, this is apparently one of those days. And I don't even know why. >.o *sigh* Not even playing World of Warcraft was cheering me up... Meh. Off to go stare blankly at the kitchen, probably wind up doing more dishes and then coming back to stare blankly at my computer screen until I eventually get tired enough to sleep. Bah... I hate days like this. On the slight up-side, I was actually able to drive a good bit today. Drove out to the feed store to get Ferret food and litter... Then to the store to get some soda for G... So apparently being painfully blank and depressed has it's uses? ... IDFK... Current Mood:  blank | | Monday, October 12th, 2009 | | 2:56 pm |
So... Lengthy times between posts aside... Yesterday marks one year. A year since I had not only told my friends and family, as that happened even before then, but a year since I started DOING something about it all... And... It actually feels pretty damn special. Heh, it's like having a birthday I actually care about... We didn't do anything special or any of that, I didn't actually say much about it out loud, but it was pretty cool... G made some awesome food though, too... Providing no one else pounced the leftovers, that's so gonna be lunch. :3 ( More lengthy babble-type )Eeh, if I remember my tangent I'll perhaps type more later... But for now, dishes need washing and whatnot... Current Mood:  curious | | Sunday, October 11th, 2009 | | 2:35 am |
Hehe... Got drunk on wine, braved watching Twihell (Twilight) finally... It was actually a survivable flick... Providing I didn't shut up and kept finding things to laugh about. Which there were thankfully PLENTY, as I was (and still am) drunk and we were MST3K-ing it! XD Overall..... Amusing. Not exactly to be repeated, but... Amusing. Also. ... As I'm still drunk, I'll admit that I NEARLY, NEARLY suggested something I would later gouge my eyes out for... But THANK FUCKING GOD!!!! My Girl prevented me from doing so. And I quote "No way in hell, not even if you asked, not ever"... Or something like that. Too drunk to recall exactly. But yes. I love my baby girl ALL the more for that!!! <3 All I'll say about it is "Sequel". Most of you can probably guess from there... My vague hint of a defense? I'm DRUNK, and wanted something else to mock. Not a GOOD excuse, at ALL! But It's what I got for now. XD And I'm drunk. :3 ... As to why the fuck I can still type? IDFK. Magical mystical L33T as FUCK skillz! XD XD XD Eerm, at least that's my story and I'm sticking to it!!! Though truthfully? I'm actually usually freakishly good at typing while drunk... XD And when I do make errors, I'm VERY much more apt to notice them... Odd, huh? Anyway... LAters, pps!!! Hehe... Next post might be about hangovers from hell from wine... IDK. XD I'm off to go play World of Warcraft for a while! LOL!!! Should be HIGHLY entertaining! :3 Current Mood:  drunk | | Monday, August 31st, 2009 | | 5:55 pm |
"It's like having living ink just under my skin! " She told me...
Just woke up. I was having a pretty nasty nightmare, but an old friend of mine saved me... God I miss her. Woke up crying, course once I was fully awake I couldn't anymore, as per usual... ( The unimportant, but still interesting parts of the dream... )I was interrupted by my thoughts as the little girl came scampering out of the ship, she looked irritated as she came over to me. "One of them is getting sick..." She frowned, "The one that yelled at you... I don't like him." She looked up at me curiously when I sighed and shook my head. "He's dying..." I tell her this, my throat tight, though somehow I know she will understand... And she does, she nods and looks saddened at that, "I figured... He's hurt inside... And worse..." At this she began walking around me, ever widening circles, as if she was taking part in some strange dance, I found it very strange, but just kept watching her curiously, honestly I thought the stress had gotten to her, or perhaps she was just always an odd child... but her next words stunned me completely. "He's infected." She spun around and jumped up onto a small rock, crouching there, watching me curiously, I set aside my gun and regarded her seriously, "Most of us are... You know. I saw it... But that's not important... What's more important is how you react to the next few minutes..." As she said that, the hair on the back of my neck stood on end and I drew my sword, stepping closer to her as I scanned the area, she intimidated me, but I also felt protective of her, and it was that sense of protectiveness that saved me, as bullets peppered the place I had just been standing, and with a curse I pulled her to me and ran to crouch behind a rock, setting her down fully behind it, bullets chasing me as I ran, one zinging off my shoulder armor... I gave her all the protection of the cover, which left me mostly exposed, but I had armor, damaged though it was, she did not. It was then I realized that I'd left my gun behind, and was now left with just a holdout pistol. 4 shots and I was down to just my sword... I grimaced as I drew it but the girl just seemed pleased, I was not. I was even MORE displeased when I finally scanned the area and noticed who had been shooting at us.... There were a rag-tag scroungy looking bunch crouched at the edge of the woods, and I could tell who they were on sight, and oh, how I cursed. They were little better than bandits in the eyes of the military, and that was because they were civilians, not 'authorized' for combat, but never the less, they stole armaments from the military and fought the Aliens all on their own. And more to the point, the girl was right. They HATED those in the military... But right then and there I knew what I had to do. And I didn't like it, though the child was clearly amused, snarling and cursing I began to strip off all my armor that ID'd me as military, leaving me with pretty much just my normal clothes, still military issue, but plain black pants and a top, my shoulder armor and wrist computer I kept, and the girl politely offered me a small white kerchief, a knowing oddly grown-up smile on her lips as she did, I just shook my head and took it, telling her to stay here until it was safe. Bracing myself for the worst, I waved the small white 'flag' in the air as I stepped out from behind the rock, my sword felt heavy in my othe hand, but I merely held it, not brandishing it, just holding it, at this a few bullets zinged by but I stood my ground and gestured at them rudely, I can't remember what exactly I yelled at them, but amidst the curses, I know I told them their opinions mattered for fuck-all if we ALL died, and that they could either kill me, or we could work together to save the remaining civilians on the ship... Apparently they agreed, and after a bit of debate from them, their leader came striding toward me, it startled me at first that their leader was a woman, but in hindsight didn't suprise me overly. She greeted me and laughed. There's where the dream flashes forward, but oddly I knew I was much safer now that I was with them... As were the civilians. Especially since, though my dream-self could never recall meeting her... I KNEW their leader, though she was a bit different in the dream than how I knew her in life, she fit her personality perfectly there... At first meeting her, her skin was pale and flawless, and her short hair was vivid red, but as time went by, these things started to change, and though I asked about it, she just laughed, and her reply was the most memorable line she told me... "I love it here..." She told me happily, confused as to what she meant I asked, that's when she smiled, more brightly than before, "HERE, silly... Don't you realize where you are?" That's when it got confusing and I nearly woke up, but she reached out and grabbed my arm, holding tightly, "No, now don't go anywhere... I worked hard to get you here!" It was then that, oddly, I knew I was dreaming, and I became more myself, though retained my dream-self's memories as well, and it was then that, seeing her, I began to cry. "I love it here" She said, her skin turning first lavendar, then sky blue, she touched har arm and traced a pattern idly, the design instantly showing up a deep royal blue, when I looked up, her lips were stained faintly blue, as if she'd just eaten a bunch of frozen blueberries. "It's like having living ink just under my skin! Though it tickles like a bunch of little bubbles, effrevecent, but sweet like white cranberry peach juice... I can do whatever I want, be whatever..." At this point she decided to relax, apparently... Sprawling out on the now lush grass, and as I looked around, I realized the world had changed, it was now as lush as an Oasis, where it had been a dusty arid desert-like landscape before. "I can change to all the colors of the rainbow, if I wished..." She was clearly pleased at this, though she frowned. "Though I do miss everyone... Some of them I can't visit like this, and I miss them. I love them, though, so at least I can see them, even if they can't see me..." And she smiled brightly, laughing, "Now, go... You'll be back..." Her grin faded to an impish little smirk, and she turned me around and smacked my ass, pushing me forward a bit, "Go before you get pulled back to that mess from before..." And though I didn't want to wake up, I did... With tears still wet on my cheeks, I woke up... And god how I didn't want to... I was glad to be rid of the nightmare, but... Yah... Tonight I'm going to drink, and when I do... I'm going to pour a bit off for her, her and the little lost girl with the bright smile... The spiral keeps turning, I guess... Shade and Sweet Water to them both. Current Mood:  numb | | Saturday, August 15th, 2009 | | 2:14 am |
Went and saw 'District 9' with my Dad tonight... Just got back, actually. And I won't post anything spoiler-y, 'cuz I fuckin hate people that do that shit, but I will say this. I liked the movie, it was interesting and thought provoking, furthermore I'm eve more impressed with Producer Peter Jackson... Even though he cut the edges a little close with Lord of the Rings, he's actually pretty damn good at capturing the visual feel that his movies need, and he's apparently pretty damn good at doing this in a variety of formats. Which brings me to the film style. It was VERY different, and at least to me, unexpected... Though perhaps I should have paid better attention to the previews. Personally I've never much liked other movies shot in that kind of style, as for me it always comes across as stilted, forced, and utterly unbelievable... However IMO, District 9 pulled the style off almost disconcertingly well. I'm keeping this vague because I hate spoilers, but if you're curious about the style I'm talking about, click the IMDB link and hover your mouse over the 'Plot Keywords', it tells you. List of movies I want to see... (Maybe not in the theater, but definitely want to see 'em.) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1156398/ ('Zombieland', looks funny in a 'Shaun of the Dead' way. ^.^) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0361748/ (Quentin Tarantino's remake of 'Inglourious Basterds'. Might be good, might suck. I don't care, it has Brad Pitt playing a snarky bastard killing Nazis... Everything else is gravy, 'm just wantin' to watch it for that!) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0386117/ ('Where The Wild Things Are'... Based of course on a book I adored as a child, upon finding out tonight that the director had the original author's input and approval, I've decided I have to see it. XD) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1127896/ ('Taking Woodstock'... Have to see it, if only for the lulz.) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1038686/ ('Legion'... OMFG, It might suck, but I have no words for how much I liked the plot and preview I saw tonight. Must. See. It.) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1197624/ ('Law Abiding Citizen' Over The Top action flicks, with the sole plot of 'Revenge!'. Yes, please. Those are very much my kinda flicks!) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0433362/ ('Daybreakers'... Eeh, maybe... New vampire flick, has the whole "In the year 2019, a plague has transformed most every human into vampires." gig going for it, but idk. I'll probably hate it, but a least it's not f-ing Twyhell) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1014759/ ('Alice in Wonderland' 'cuz I just have to... Seems I develop a driving need to watch anything with Johnny Depp in it, 'cuz he's just that awesome.) Also at some point, I need to sit down and watch the newest Harry Potter flick, and X-men, 'cuz I need to update my HP movie know-how (even if it's bad or whatever), and Wolveriene just rocks. Current Mood:  hopeful | | Sunday, August 9th, 2009 | | 4:50 pm |
Excuse me while I ROFLMAO... And then cheer... ... Why you may ask..? This... http://www.cracked.com/blog/8-things-i-know-about-vampires-based-on-the-lost-boys/ *Copys a snippet from said link* "But for all it's baffling 80s-ness, I think kids today could learn a lot from Lost Boys. With the vampires from 'Twilight' walking around like starved members of My Chemical Romance, all "wah wah wah cry cry cry," kids these days probably think vampires are whiny douchebags. In 'The Lost Boys,' vampires are a cross between the Goonies and 'Ride the Lightning'-era Metallica. Consider school officially in session, kids. Here's what you should really know about vampires."*ROFLMAO more* If you're amused by my random Lost Boys stuff at all, click it please. It is lulz. Thats is all. \o/ Current Mood:  amused | | Saturday, August 8th, 2009 | | 12:30 am |
"Just a girl born in Dixie, washed in the blood
And raised on the banks of the Mississippi mud
She always had a thing about fallin’ in love with a bad boy
Yeah they could see it all comin’
But her daddy never dreamed
She’d grow up that fast, you know what I mean
The way a girls gets when she turns seventeen, kinda crazy""She’s a rebel child and a preacher’s daughter
She was baptized in dirty water
Her mama cried the first time they caught her with me
They knew they couldn’t stop her
She holds tight to me and the Bible
On the back seat of my motorcycle
Left her daddy standing there preaching to the choir, you see
God love her
Oh, me and God love her""She kissed her mama good-bye
Said, "I’ll be sure to phone ‘ya"
She called her from a truck stop in Tucson, Arizona
With amazing grace we made California alive
And then my gypsy life started takin’ it's toll
And the fast lane got empty and out of control
And just like an angel she saved my soul from the devil""She’s a rebel child and a preacher’s daughter
She was baptized in dirty water
Her mama cried the first time they caught her with me
They knew they couldn’t stop her
She holds tight to me and the Bible
On the back seat of my motorcycle
Left her daddy standing there preaching to the choir, you see
God love her
Oh, me and God love her""Now she holds tight to me and the Bible
On the back seat of my motorcycle
Left her daddy standing there preaching to the choir, you see
God love her
Oh me and God love her
God love her
Me and God love her"Just lyrics and a link to the video for now... Perhaps a bit of story-time later once I can shake this intense depressed/wistful feeling that the song inspires, as in spite of how the song makes me feel... It reminds me of a certain fictional crossover paring... All the girl in the video needs is beautiful long dark hair, and her boyfriend's hair needs to be a touch longer and frizzier, and they would very much resemble said pairing... What d'you think, Baby Girl? Current Mood:  lonelyCurrent Music: Toby Keith - "God lover her" | | Thursday, August 6th, 2009 | | 5:16 pm |
(Not that I think anyone reads this anymore, but...) I finally gave my old phone service the axe. Tmobile has NO reception for 27 miles out here, so it was useless to keep around, anyway... I'm going to try and get a pre-payed phone through AT&T or Verizon sometime later... I can't get another payed plan through Verizon at least, because my credit score is crap, and they want to charge me a fuckin' insane 400$ deposit before they'll even THINK of giveing me a free phone... Haven't checked AT&T yet, but I'm sure they'll say the same. So, yah... My old 3816 phone# is dead, and since I'm having to switch to pre-pay, I won't be getting it back. However if anyone cares to ask, feel FREE to ask for my new cell phone number when I get it... (I'll post when I finally have a new working phone.) Current Mood:  crappy | | 2:14 pm |
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| | Monday, August 3rd, 2009 | | 10:46 am |
Ooohkayyy... When doing a Google Image Search for "gremlins screencaps"... ... The LAST thing I was expecting to see where...'Lost Boys' screencaps..?! WTFF INTERNET?! SERIOUSLY!Page one, second result. Eerm... WTFF? ... Is the INERNET now officially as insane as _I_ am>?! Current Mood:  confused | | Sunday, August 2nd, 2009 | | 5:04 pm |
"Now the lights are going out,
Along the boulevard
Memories come rushing back and makes it pretty hard
I've got nowhere left to go
And no one really cares
I don't know what to do
But I'm never giving up on you."( More story snippets... ) Current Mood:  listlessCurrent Music: Warrant - "Heaven" | | Saturday, August 1st, 2009 | | 11:43 am |
Those of you that know me know how depressed even ASKING this leaves me... But I ain't got much choice... Does ANYONE know of any veterinary office that will still let you sign the animal over to them so they can treat them and then adopt them out? One of my cats (Skywise) is clearly quite sick, he's now refusing to eat unless I sit with him, I'm pretty sure he's not drinking much, he REFUSES to use the litterbox unless I force him into it and hold him there... And even then he usually doesn't... I currently have to keep him locked up in the bathroom 24/7, because I can't keep him in my room at ALL. If I do he curls up next to me and pees (Or worse!)... If he was healthy I was planning on just making him strictly an outside cat... Since we live in Vernonia it would likely be fine... I even got a harness and a tag with all the current info on it that he's been wearing, but... I just don't feel comfortable doing that when he's sick... The way he's so listless and shivery would make him easy prey for everything that lives out here... So... Yah... I'm depressed and at my wits end, freaking out and trying to figure out what the hell I can do for my cat when he's clearly sick... And Dad doesn't care, he just wants him OUT of the house. He even suggested taking the cat to the pound, but ESPECIALLY with him being sick I can't do that, they'll just put him to sleep for SURE, as that's standard process with sick animals. (Or so they tell me.) So, yah... Any advise at ALL????? Current Mood:  depressed | | Friday, July 24th, 2009 | | 8:45 pm |
Huh?!
Land mine left in Goodwill donation box
By The Associated Press
ARVADA, Colorado — A land mine found in a suburban Denver Goodwill donation box forced the evacuation of a strip mall.
The rectangular, olive-green box with the words “Front Toward Enemy” raised the suspicions of Goodwill workers Tuesday.
Arvada police say the Claymore land mine didn’t go off in the donation box and no one was hurt. A bomb squad disposed of the device.
Police Sgt. Jeff Monzingo says it’s unclear whether the device was operational or where it came from. No suspects have been identified.
Claymore mines were widely used during the Vietnam war.As posted here -> http://cnews.canoe.ca/CNEWS/WeirdNews/2009/07/22/10223996-ap.html Current Mood: confused | | 7:45 am |
Story?
I had a dream the other night... ( ... More of a nightmare, really... )... It's been only 3-4 days since then... Since all that, and I still can't sleep... I've been running 36 hour 'days' because of it. I'm terrified of dreaming, and reliving it all over again... And I do, when I dream. So I try not to... So I push myself... Wake up at night, force myself to stay up all through the day, let the next night's energy boost keep me awake as long as possible, and just when the sun is warming the sand, I finally sleep sometimes... Current Mood:  exhausted | | Monday, July 20th, 2009 | | 8:29 pm |
10/09/08... Until now... 10 Months, Approximately. ... I think this October I'm going to get a tattoo of some kind... One year is on an oddly important date for me. Nothing 'specifically for this' or 'in honor of', I might regret those later, but maybe just FINALLY getting something I've been wanting for a while, like the shamrocks and triskele I've been wanting... Or perhaps just something more 'classic', a Tribal armband wouldn't go amiss... Nothing's set in stone... Just thoughts, pondering... Current Mood:  peaceful | | Saturday, July 18th, 2009 | | 5:06 am |
Randomness
http://www.paulsadowski.com/BirthData.aspSaturday, July 18, 2009 Birthday Calculator 12 February 1986 Your date of conception was on or about 22 May 1985 which was a Wednesday. You were born on a Wednesday under the astrological sign Aquarius. Your Life path number is 11. Your fortune cookie reads: Keep in close touch with what your competition is doing. ( MORE Birthday Calculator info ) Current Mood:  tired |
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